11-30-04 - 9:38
LIfe continues to prove interesting each day, but with out little oddities this world would be a boring place to live. Have you ever wondered if the world would be better off with out humans? How bout wondering if the world is purposely finite and that no matter what the human population will continue to grow until they out grow the carring capacity. Maybe God purposely made the world finite and put humans in it as some twisted joke. to solve the problems of human population growth all we have to do is screw the people in Africa, keep eating fat filled foods, drive really fast after drinking and all in all just do everything they've ever told us is bad for us to do.
Why does my iside ache / with each decision it must make / Just crying out to be unbroken, / more than a simple token. / Things get harder everyday / but the lies can't stay away / My pain shows through my eyes / As my smile runs and hides / hoping no one recognizes the act of playing "okay" / 'cause what i feel i know i can't say, / it's just the everyday emotions / taking me through the motions / of the endless production / as i wish to sease to function
Live really isn't as bad as it all sems in the long run. As long as you don't look at any of those big problems that loom just beyond our grasp. Sometimes i wonder if people really give a damn about what anyone else says. Wouldn't things just be easier if humans didn't complicate them with words and instead trusted their actions instead of words because words are so misleading sometimes. But then actions can be too. So do we trust actions and feelings or whatever words are said? Things are so complicated in this day and age. We spend our lives searching for love but do we ever really find it? Or was it there to begin with and we're to blind to realize that what we want is right in front of us? Ever think that doing a certain thing is for the best and so, even though you might not be 100% sure it's what you want to do, go a do it. Then realize after the act has been done that you really don't think you truelly wanted to do it but at the same time still think it was the best thing to do at the time. Things like that happen all the time everyday and we just continue to go on living. Life and the rest of the world won't stop to wait for you while you try to figure it out. Listen to yourself and what you're saying. That's where the true knowledge lies. That's how you'll know what to do. Now do it.
